2005
Entry One Dear Diary I went overboard on my class trip and ended up in a town called Point Pleasant. I was rescued by a lifeguard and this really nice family took me in. Mr Kramer is a doctor and he told me that I'm fine. So I'm the girl from the sea with her Mom in a box. Judy had a great idea about me staying. I'm sure it would be fine since my Father's always traveling. Harland's always been there for me . I'll call Harland and let him know that I want to stay. This could be my chance to finally understand. I need to find my Mom because I think she'll have the answers I need. It'd be nice to be around a real family for a change. Dr Kramer doesn't think that mark on my eye is a birthmark like my Dad told me. I took a closer look and it's really strange. It almost looks like some kind of symbol but I'm not sure what it is. Entry Two Dear Diary This is great I can stay with the Kramers. It's like I was meant to be here. My Mom came from Ocean Grove which is two towns over. I'm determined to find her because I really need answers. I need to know what's going on with me. I went to the bonfire on the beach and I'm not so sure that it was such a good idea. That Paula was kinda bitchy and once again weirdness reigned. I don't really understand what's going on. It's like I can make things happen and a part of enjoys it. Maybe there's something really wrong with me. I think my Mom is the only one that can help me. Entry Three Dear Diary There was an explosion at the gas station last night and I'm pretty sure it was my fault. I don't understand what's going on at all. Thankfully no one was hurt. I went to St Martins to see if I could find anything out about my Mom. It was so strange to find the birthmark on my eye carved into a pew in the church. There has to be some connection. Harland showed up and at first I was glad to see him. He was acting really strange like he was afraid of me or something. He spoke Latin and started choking me but stopped when those wasps flew into his face. This is so surreal that I wonder if it was just a bad dream. I thought he was my friend. The Kramers are so nice. They want me to stay and the room that Meg made up for me is beautiful. I wasn't sure about staying but this place really feels like home and the Kramers are like my family. I'll stay for now and who knows I may end up finding my Mom. Entry Four Dear Diary I need to go back to St Martins. It's weird how the dog kept growling. I'm wondering if it's me or if the dog was just grouchy. It's just another case of weirdness in a long line. My Dad still hasn't called me back. Maybe that whole thing with Harland was just a bad dream. That's another reason I need to go back to see if what I saw actually happened. It still seems like a dream because it doesn't make sense or even really seem real. I guess I'll go to the clam back even though I've never been to one. My first bonfire and now this. Hopefully this one will go better. Judy's really great and there's something about Jesse. I don't know what it is. Personally I think his girlfriend is kind of a bitch but I guess I shouldn't talk because I might act the same way if I was in her place. Entry Five Dear Diary That was strange. The dog started barking and growling again and I think I scratched him. I just don't understand this. It's so weird. That seems to be a recurring theme in my life. The stained glass window was broken but no mention of anyone being hurt. I'm sure it happened but I don't have proof. I asked the priest but he didn't say anything about a person being found. I think that priest was hiding something. It's like he saw something that he didn't want me to see. I need to see what was on that paper. Maybe it would give me some clue about where I can find my Mom. It helped a little to talk to the priest but I still wonder if I am cursed. This can't be normal. I'm afraid that I'll like the bad things more and more since a part of me kinda likes it. I don't want to hurt people but I'm not sure if this is even something I can control. Entry Six Dear Diary I went back to the church with Jesse and found something totally bizarre. It doesn't make any sense. When I looked in the file it said that my Mom was pregnant and still a virgin. Then they just disappeared. Instead of getting answers I ended up with more questions. Who claims to be pregnant by immaculate conception anyway? I have no idea what's going on here. I'm just so very confused about everything. I don't get how Jesse and I are so drawn to one another. It just kind of freaked me out at what he said. Could I be doing something to him? It's probably for the best for him to stay away. That creepy guy showed up again. He works for my Father. I'm not even sure how he found me. He just seems to know stuff more than he should. He even seems to know about my powers. I really don't like him. It was like he was pushing me to do something. Entry Seven Dear Diary The parade didn't go off as planned. Maybe I was seeing things but I could have sworn I saw someone in the flames. The boat wasn't working and then it starts up and it's on fire. Just another thing that makes no sense at all. I guess that wasn't the most disturbing part. Some papers were floating in the water and I got some answers. Now I know what the birthmark is. Oh God I can't believe it but I know it's true. There are three sixes which means the very worst possible thing imaginable. Is this all some nightmare? I want to wake up now. Entry Eight Dear Diary I had the worst dream. Everyone was dead except for me and Jesse. He told me he loved me and stabbed me and I said I loved him. I wonder if this dream means something. I really need to talk to my Dad but I doubt he was since it's not like we really talk anyway. I really do need to talk because I have so many questions. I called him again and once again got the machine. I'm really scared and need answers. Maybe he'll call back. He's not acting like a Father. I would think he'd call to make sure that I'm all right wanting me to come home. I just don't know what to do. Entry Nine Dear Diary I keep thinking about things and I don't like it one bit. It's like it's unreal. Judy was in an accident and the guy was being such a jerk I ended up making his nose bleed and later started choking him and nearly killed him. To make matters worse I nearly made Ben kill that guy but I was able to stop him. I don't understand anything these days. I don't know why I'm so drawn to Jesse. It makes no sense since we're practically strangers. There is something really wrong and I don't know if it can be fixed. Even going to see Father Thomas didn't help. He scared me when he was holding that dagger and told me to get out. He came by and he wants to help me and he confirmed my worst fears. Finally I saw Daddy but it wasn't exactly the reunion I was hoping for. He knows what's going on with me but won't tell me. He just kicked me out of his life. I was so upset that I almost made a good man kill someone. I think more now than ever that I need to find my Mom. I'm just so glad I stopped him and that he doesn't remember what happened. Entry Ten Dear Diary What a night it was. If I had any doubts before this pretty much confirms it. It started out not so bad. I'll admit that I wasn't all that sorry for Paula when Jesse said they broke up. It was nice talking to him but Paula's minion Lucinda decided to get all in my face. Ok she kinda had a point but she nearly made me lose it. Ironically Lucinda ends up nearly getting killed and of course the blame kinda goes to me because Dr Forrester wanted to kill her for me. It just makes me sick and scared at what might happen if I give into the evil that's inside me. It's like I've infected the town with this sickness but Father Thomas thinks I have good in me and I hope he's right. I'm going to fight the monster. I'll admit that maybe for a second I was tempted but I did the right thing. I'm not sure if I can win out against pure evil. I guess that's why it's so important that I find my Mom. I'm just glad that there's one person I can talk to since it's not like I can come right out and spill to Jesse or even Judy. Entry Eleven Dear Diary Ok I guess Lucinda isn't so bad after all she was just sticking up for her friend after all. I'm just glad I was able to stop Dr Forrester before anyone got seriously hurt. It's just so hard because it would be so easy to just give into it but I won't. I can't go there ever. I wish Judy would stop calling me the town hero especially when I can't help but feel somewhat responsible. I'm sure Boyd and my real Father are so disappointed about me doing the right thing. Well like it or not I know the truth which in a way has to help because now I know what I'm up against. I just hope there's enough good in me to keep fighting. I'm not so sure about this dance contest. Paula already hates me because of Jesse and probably for being friends with Lucinda. It's not like I wanted any of this to happen. I don't even know what this thing is between me and Jesse. We're like virtual strangers yet we seem to be drawn to one another like magnets. It's unlikely that I'd be paired up with him anyway that would be the last thing I need. I'll go so maybe I can feel like a normal person and everyone will think I'm just like everyone else. Entry Twelve Dear Diary Talk about a bad decision. I thought I could go to the dance and just be a regular person but no such luck. Of all people Boyd was hosting the thing and of course he caused trouble which is no surprise considering who he works for. I wonder if he was even reading the names on the cards because it was like he was deliberate about who he put together. I wonder if I'd have been so willing to save Paula if it was her in that truck instead of Lucinda. It didn't help that Paula was a total bitch. She's just so nasty and I know getting mad is the last thing I need to do. I wonder what the story is with Judy and Mark there's something there. Now Paula would make a better daughter of the devil than me. It's like she wants everyone to hate me. I know she totally tripped us on purpose so me and Terry would be out of the running. I'm not even sure what that stuff was that came out of the shower. I did that but I know that it was Boyd getting into my head that caused me to drop the disco ball. I do feel bad about Terry because he seemed to really need the money. I'm just so confused about this whole mess. Maybe I should leave town but the Kramers are becoming like my family. Judy saw me looking at the ball before it dropped but there's no way she could suspect that it was me. I'm slipping because I let Boyd get inside my head and gave into that urge. I'm just glad that Judy pushed Paula out of the way in time. I don't like Boyd at all trying to get into my head and make me hurt people. He implied that he has the same Father. Could that be true? No I'm nothing like him and I refuse to be anything like him. Entry Thirteen Dear Diary I had this dream where I was in St Martins and I think my Mom was there too. She was holding a baby and I think it was me but I woke up. I've had some pretty strange dreams. I wonder if they mean anything or if it's just bad dreams. Judy suspects something because she won't talk to me. It's like she couldn't get away from me fast enough. I need to see if I can find some kind of a lead on my Mom. I need to go see Father Thomas and hopefully he can help me because I don't know if the next time something happens that I'll be able to resist giving into the evil that's inside me. Entry Fourteen Dear Diary Father Thomas found a lead on my Mom but it didn't go quite as I'd hoped. The Dr jumped out of the window before I could really find out anything. I don't know how I'm going to find her since this was my best lead. It seemed like she knew who my Father really is. I didn't do it that much I know but Judy had a front row seat. I do feel responsible because it was most likely him that drove her out of the window. All in all it was a crappy day. Judy went through my stuff not that I can blame her really and then she followed me. If I was her I'd do the same thing myself. I'd want to make sure my family was safe so I totally understand what she did. I don't want them hurt either. It just hurts because they are the only family I have. Entry Fifteen Dear Diary I decided to leave Point Pleasant in the hope that I wouldn't hurt anyone else. I got on the bus and oddly Jesse came on at the last second wanting to leave too. It was like that storm coming up was a way to make me go back. It was like that woman that was hurt briefly became a conduit for Isabelle who want me to go back too. While I appreciate Father Thomas trying to help me I don't think he'll be able to because something always gets in the way. The only way I can find anything out is to somehow make Boyd talk. I'm just not sure how I'd go about doing it. It's funny how Jesse just found out that his Father isn't his real Father. Of course the whole thing sounds crazy in my case. I wish I'd wake up and be back on the boat on my class trip and the whole thing about Point Pleasant was just some strange dream while I was unconscious but I have to deal with reality. It was nice to talk to Jesse about things even though I had to be careful about how I put things since I couldn't come out and say oh and by the way my real Father is the Devil. It's so insane. For just a little while it was almost like I was a normal girl talking to this great guy but then the bus got into an accident. So I guess for now I'll stay in Point Pleasant. I guess Isabelle wants me there for her family so I'm gonna over to the Kramers to talk to Judy. I might have to tell her. Entry Sixteen Dear Diary I hate seeing what Body is doing to Meg. That son of a bitch needs to die although I'm not sure if he can be killed. He obviously has some kind of powers since he can get into peoples heads. I'm just glad that I'm able to block him out. I'm glad that Jesse came back. It's strange but it's almost like he's supposed to be here. I hope he has better luck finding the answers he's looking for. At least he won't find out that he's the son of Satan since he'll have a normal Father. It was so weird how that poor woman Ruth was dead one second until Jesse came but I guess it's possible that her pulse was so weak that I couldn't feel it. I'm just glad everyone survived with no critical injuries. Entry Seventeen Dear Diary Well that didn't work. I thought I could do it but I didn't. I probably made things worse. It was like he enjoyed it. I'm just glad that the Kramers weren't around. Well I found out the price to keeping Judy alive was Father Thomas's life. I found his body. Damn it I didn't want this to happen. I was to close to losing myself because I know I would have been lost if Judy wasn't around to snap me out of it. I actually felt close to him which was scary. I found Father Thomas crushed under the stone cross. I don't know what I'm gonna do now. Entry Eighteen Dear Diary I kinda lost it at Father Tomas's funeral. It didn't help that Boyd showed up. He was enjoying every second. I was just so angry that Father Tomas died and I can't help but feel responsible for it since he was helping me. I just don't know what to do. Every person that I care about is in danger. I have to worry about Jesse too since Boyd showed an interest in him. I was surprised to come face to face with Father David back from the dead sort of. I didn't mean to do that. I was just so confused and praying in the hopes of getting an answer. I was scared but I was willing to be killed if it meant everyone would be safe. Jesse showed up and saved me. It's strange but he came out of that barn and he was holding a burning beam. Judy's right about why I'm afraid to tell him what's going on. I think he'd believe me and take off running as far away from me as possible. I thought my death would be the answer but it wouldn't really. That wouldn't stop Boyd from wreaking havoc. I have to be here and fight. Maybe I should tell Jesse but I'm not sure how to. He thinks we're destined to save each other. I do know his touch calmed me down when I turned Father Matthew into my rage puppet. I want to protect him instead of dragging him deeper into this mess but I may have no choice. I want him to be safe.
