Moonlight Dwelling

Entry One

Dear Diary

I am so nervous about going to High School. A brand new school full of strangers which could be a plus but it's intimidating too. I could reinvent myself and be totally cool or I could be a total freak which wouldn't be so cool. Sunnydale High is back again and Buffy is majorly freaked out about it. That just makes me more nervous.

 So I've made a breakthrough with Buffy. She's going to take me out for some slaying. That will be so cool and it's about time too. I'll finally be a full fledged member of the Scoobies fighting all the ogglie booglies that go bump in the night. It's not as though I've never staked a vampire before since I did get that one last Halloween. Well I better get some dinner before Buffy gets home so we can go out after.

Entry Two

Dear Diary

I made it through my first night of slaying and my first day of school. I wonder whose brilliant idea it was to rebuild the school on the same spot not to mention building it smack dab on the Hellmouth to start with. That was the worst idea ever. The class of 99 did us all a favor by blowing it up and they ruined their good work by rebuilding it.

It's probably all over the school how I flipped out in class and how my sister came in and was all weird. So I'm assured freak status with people pointing and staring. It's not my fault that I was attacked by a ghost thing.

 Good thing Buffy gave me that cell phone. So the principal offered Buffy a job and of course she accepted it since it gives her the perfect excuse to hang around. I'm not so sure I like that. Okay she did come in handy but I need my own space. Actually she'll probably be great at this job but still I don't want her popping up all over the place and stalking me around the school.

Entry Three

Dear Diary

I certainly don't want to run into a Gnarl demon again. He kinda reminded me a little of Gollum but it's a long way from Middle Earth and I'm not hobbit although it looks like a cool place to live in the Shire like they do. I'm so glad that I can feel again and move since that so sucked being stuck and all stiff like that.

Willow's back and she didn't slip which is a very good thing. She was so nervous about seeing us that we didn't and she didn't. I was nervous myself but she seems to be the Willow we all know and love. I hope it stays that way.

She's still living here and I'm totally fine with it since I care about her and want her around and it's her home too. How alone she must have felt with that thing eating her. Good thing they got to her in time and that Anya was able to see her.

Entry Four

Dear Diary

I made a friend named Cassie. It's just a shame that it was such a short friendship. I am glad though I met her since she was really special. Buffy had me go to her but I really liked her. She did die after all like she said she would. Why did her heart have to give out on her? It's just so sad to know that I'll never see her again and of all the things she'll miss out on and I'll miss out on having a great friend maybe even a best friend in her.

Buffy feels like she failed but she didn't because she did save Cassie from being killed by those stupid boys. She didn't fail Cassie's heart did. People die and there's nothing you can do to stop that. All you can do is go on and make the best of the time you have. I'm going to the funeral even though I didn't know her for long.

How cool that she had a website. She wrote some cool poems. Sure they are gloomy but in a good way. Writing stuff down can totally help in getting things off your chest. It's like therapy without the couch and the shrink and writing and nodding stuff. I even made a stab at some poems myself. I think I'll have some chocolate since it's supposed to be comfort food.

Entry Five

Dear Diary

I have literally fallen for the hottest guy like ever. The guy with the Letterman's jacket. I am so in love with him I even heard music playing. What a lucky break when that vending machine fell on that girl. This is so perfect.

 I'll just borrow Buffy's old cheer-leading outfit. I'll become part of the team. I'll even make up my own cheer since he's the most important part of the team. I looked into his eyes and saw his soul. He's the man of my dreams. I'm head over heels in love with this guy. We are going to be together forever.

Entry Six

Dear Diary

Oh the horror of tryouts. I make a great cheer and everything goes totally wrong. I made a total fool of myself and RJ had a front row seat to see me in my utter mortification. This wasn't supposed to happen. How can I face him after this? Buffy just doesn't understand. This isn't a crush it's love.

 There has to be a way to make it right. We are like destined to be together. It's like written in the stars or something. She can't understand since she like knows nothing about true love. She doesn't have the best track record. I'll be with RJ regardless of what she thinks since she doesn't matter and it's not like it's any of her business anyway.

Entry Seven

Dear Diary

Well we went all totally insane and I almost got smashed like a bug by a train to prove my love. How totally stupid is that? I can't believe that I was going to kill myself to prove my love for a guy that I didn't even know. I never even found out his last name. That's like the dumbest thing in the world. I didn't even know the guy.

 I was just consumed with him like he swallowed me whole. I'm so not looking forward to the whole love thing if that's how it goes. I guess suicide doesn't usually come into the picture. I know it was that jacket with a spell on it but it felt so real. The jacket is ashes now. It even worked on Willow and she likes girls.

 She nearly turned him into a girl. That would have been interesting to see if it would actually work. Would it have worked if a girl was wearing it to attract guys? Not that I'd ever do that since it tends to be guys that have the jerk disease which would probably be my luck with the jacket.

Entry Eight

Dear Diary

I never thought I'd get to sleep after last night. Willow thinks it was fake because she saw someone too but it was so real. I think something was trying to stop Mom from talking to me. I even did an exorcism and she came but the things she said. It's like I'm torn because I want it to have been her but if it was that would mean that everything she said was true.

 She warned me about bad things coming so I don't know what to think. It's just that I really miss her. I guess it could have been fake since fake could seem real and Willow saw something too so it was like the night for talking to dead people. Maybe the Hellmouth and tap into your brain and make you see stuff. It's just that Buffy's the only family I have left with mom dead and I guess deep down I have that fear that Buffy will leave me too.

Entry Nine

Dear Diary

So Spike might be killing again. If that's true that could mean that what mom said was true even if it really wasn't mom. So I'm hoping that Spike didn't do it which would make the other night just evil messing with my head. Even if he is killing again doesn't mean that what happened was true.

But I can't stop thinking about what Anya about her always telling the truth when she was a demon. That is so strange because I would lie all the time if I was evil. Not that telling lies makes you evil but a honest evil doer just doesn't sound all that evil to me.

 I mean wouldn't part of the fun be that? Maybe Spike has totally lost it since he was all crazy in the basement. He did knock out Xander after all so Buffy went to find him. There should be evil insurance or something since the house keeps getting totally trashed.

Entry Ten

Dear Diary

I'm not so sure about this whole Spike staying with us thing. I mean he went he went back to killing people so shouldn't he be meeting the pointy end of a stake? It's just so creepy that he's here and he's left who know how many bodies around ready to join the ranks of the undead. Buffy thinks that the evil is messing around with him big time and made him do the killings but that isn't very comforting.

It's a good thing that Xander is around to make the house all liveable again with the shattered window and all. So Buffy wants to get close to Spike which I think makes a crazy kind of sense. She does have a point about it but I'll be ready to send him up in flames if he goes near me. I know that we need to figure out what the next big bad is but this isn't the greatest idea in the world.

Entry Eleven

Dear Diary

Well things had to go from bad to worse. Giles showed up with some Slayers in waiting which is so odd. I didn't do too bad when I was fighting those robey guys. I'm disappointed that I didn't get to hit the nerdy guy. It's like Slayer Central here. My mac and cheese didn't turn out and Spike was taken and who knows what's being done to him.

 I actually feel a little bad for the guy. My cooking experiences never seem to work well like that peanut butter omelet. So it's a full house and I have to go to school which sucks. I mean the whole world could like totally end with these makers of evil. That is so not good.

Well we'll figure it out since we did beat a Hell God after all but I don't want any dying except for the bad guys. It's so strange that no one else knows what's going on. They go about their lives totally clueless. I'm thinking that wouldn't be the worst thing in the world since ignorance is bliss. This should so get me out of my homework since I'm like trying to save the world which is way more important. But I guess my teachers wouldn't go for it.

Entry Twelve

Dear Diary

Wow that was quite a speech Buffy made. She was all thrashed and looking really bad but she was totally amazing. I was scared when I saw her looking all half dead and stuff. But she is tough and she totally didn't let it keep her down. The house is totally overflowing with people. Too bad we can't use magick to make the house grow so I don't trip over the wannabee Slayers or the nerd boy. We could make a room just for him and I could smack him around.

Actually I think they aren't going to be all that much help since so far they pretty much seem pathetic. I mean at least I've seen vamps and even done some slaying which is more than most of them. I could so do better than them well Kennedy isn't too bad and I think she totally has a crush on Willow. It's just so weird that time just slipped on into December well I'm off to school which is always a good thing. Not!

Entry Thirteen

Dear Diary

Well the big ugly has been dusted. It's a good thing that there was only one of those ubervamps since it wasn't your typical pointy end and dust kill. But she did it and she was amazing. That thing was super tough but it's dust now. I am like so proud of her since she'll totally kick the First's ass. She got Spike out and man did he look bad. It was worse than the time he got tortured by Glory.

I wonder how many girls are coming since we are on total overload. I so don't like sharing a room. At least I'm still in my own bed which I refuse to give up. I wonder if they'll get Faith since she's a Slayer too. Sure she's a psycho and all but she turned from the dark side when she turned herself in which should be a good sign. I mean Willow went all scary and evil but now she's back to her old self.

Entry Fourteen

Dear Diary

More girls are showing up so no more room of my own. The only place to get privacy is the bathroom and that doesn't last long. It was so strange when I thought I was a potential. I was torn of course but it was kind of cool too since I'd be part of this amazing thing but I'm not since it was Amanda.

That was so sweet what Xander said to me and I know he totally meant it and wasn't just saying it to cheer me up. He said I was extraordinary. That made me feel good since I was kinda down. I guess that's why I've been doing major research since I want to be helpful. Well me and Xander are the regular people and it can be hard when all those people are part of this special group and here we are on the outside looking in.

Entry Fifteen

Dear Diary

Maybe I could be a Watcher since I'm getting the hang of the research thing. A new generation of Watchers since the others except for Giles and maybe a few others I don't know the names of are all dead. Does a person have to be English to be one since they all seem to be? I really don't know what I want to be.

Fighting evil is good and all but it doesn't exactly pay the bills. Maybe we could open an agency like Angel and the others in LA. I guess thinking about the future is out now since we need to figure out how to fight this thing. So Spike is all fixed up now since Riley came through. That was so amazing of him to send help. We need all the help we can get and Spike's a good fighter when he's not all insane or killing people.

Entry Sixteen

Dear Diary

How weird to find out that Principal Wood is the son of a Slayer. So I guess that rules him out as being evil. I think it's so strange that he sits at his desk right above the mouth of Hell like that each day. It kinda gives me the creeps.

Poor Xander had a horrible date since he got yet another demon chick again and was stabbed. He wanted to turn gay but he'd probably just attract boy demons. Well Clem is a sweetie. I'm just glad that he's ok since his date nearly summoned another one of those Turok Han vamps. We so don't need another one of those on the loose.

Entry Seventeen

Dear Diary

My Sumerian's getting better although it helped when that book changed to English. That Slayer bag had such a funky smell. Another potential has died courtesy of the First. Buffy got all crabby but she had a point. We all have to do something. Anya for instance since she just sits back waiting to be rescued.

 At least Andrew bakes and he has that chart going for him. That guy should so get some new clothes. At least he's bathing regularly and cleaning his one set of clothes that he has had for like months or at least it seems like that long since it was the same thing he was wearing when he left town.

 Hmm that could be a good excuse to go to the mall since they don't like me going alone after that whole shoplifting thing. Well I haven't stolen anything for a really long time so yaye me.

Entry Eighteen

Dear Diary

As usual things got a bit hairy but at least I got to get some time off from school. That is something that I'll never get tired of. Well Andrew finally wore new clothes since I was so all over that whole mime look of his. Usually a guy all in black is sexy but not for him.

He's goofy but he kinda grows on you and he's kinda sweet. Ok it was a bit annoying with his camera but the things he said were really sweet. I think it's cool that Willow and Kennedy are all cozy again. I'm so happy for her. Well that seal thing at school has been closed so I guess no more ugly vamps. That's such a good thing since the last one was tricky to kill. Maybe I'll do some training too since it's only right that I can take care of myself.

Buffy's been busy with the potentials so my slay lessons have stopped and it took so long before she gave in and started giving me lessons. I'm not gonna just sit back since this is my fight too. I mean I can't be all researchy all the time.

At least the sun is back in LA. That has to be so weird to have the sun gone. I wonder if that's why Angel called but he hung up which was odd. It's just good that it's back although I'm not sure how. Willow and Cordelia used to email each other all the time with news but not lately. I guess things there are pretty crazy too.