Moonlight Dwelling

2001-2002

2002-2003

Entry One

Dear Diary

She's gone she's really gone and just as we say goodbye to her another sister pops up out of nowhere. I thought the Charmed Ones were gone which would have meant no more demons and a chance at a normal life. So Mom did the same thing as I did and got pregnant and gave her up for adoption I guess to protect her. I don't know how I feel about that it's a lot to take in. I don't know how to be a big sister because I always had Prue and now she's not here. I really hate this. I wish she was still here.

I wish Mom mentioned having another daughter since that just came out of nowhere. Talk about crappy timing. This would be very bad timing but we just need to deal. So it's one step at a time with this not so little bombshell. I'm just so grateful I have Leo because I'd really be a basket-case otherwise. So Paige isn't evil which is good and now we have to figure out what to do about the Source. Can't a family have a little time to mourn their loss? I need some time to think about this whole destiny thing. Prue was always the strong one, now that she's gone I don't know if we'll have the strength to keep fighting for good or even if it's even worth it.

Entry Two

Dear Diary

Ok so going after demons isn't the best idea after what happened. I turned into a Fury so I was pretty scary there for a while. It's just been so hard going on without Prue. I was so mad that she left us. I've just felt so lost and I kinda went a little nuts. It's just a good thing my husband's dead since I blew him up.

I haven't been very welcoming to Paige. It's just that it seems like an invitation to pain to open my heart to someone. I guess it'll be baby steps. She did save my life. So I think I'll bake her some muffins. She's my sister so of course I'll need to get to know her. We're just so vulnerable right now. I never know if I'm going to freeze something or blow it up.

Entry Three

Dear Diary

It's not easy being the eldest sister. I guess it'll take time but it's hard. So it was like a theme day with souls swapping with other bodies. It's just hard because I have to teach Paige how to be a witch in as little time as possible. It's not easy but she really came through finally with that quiz on herbs.

I just have really big shoes to fill. I haven't done it yet and I'm not sure that I ever will. It's just really hard to think I can do this. I'm just worried that we'll be attacked and killed if we don't get it together. I don't want to lose another sister. I don't think I'd be able to survive it again. There are times now when I'm not sure I'll get through this. I just have to take it one day at a time.

Entry Four

Dear Diary

What was I thinking trying to change the club. The Spot gave me a few shivers. My waitresses spots were practically showing. It's a club not a strip joint. I guess trying to change the club was a very bad idea. It's just that it was because of Prue and Phoebe that I got P3. So it's back to P3 because I didn't like The Spot. Well I did get Dave Navarro.

I'm glad I'm back to normal size again. I won't complain about my height again after being five inches tall. I can't dwell on the losses because sadly there's nothing I can do to change them. Prue isn't coming back which sucks but I have a new sister that I'm starting to really care about. We made a pretty good team and Claudia was saved from that freak.

Entry Five

Dear Diary

So it was Paige's turn to be haunted by a past life that nearly killed us. I'm the only one that hasn't had one to come back and bite me on the ass. I hope it stays that way because it never turns out good. So Paige was kinda forced to move in since her past life self trashed the place. She won't get her security deposit after that. Leo was quite sexy with that sword fighting.

I know I came up with the idea to ask her to move in more for witchy than sisterly reasons. It had to happen eventually. I know it wasn't the most ideal of circumstances but I'm glad she moved in. Now we can get rid of that shocker demon and use electricity again. Living together is probably the best way for us to bond as sisters.

Entry Six

Dear Diary

Well that was a total nightmare. That guy was creeping me out. I don't like it when demons mess with my head. I almost bought into it too. Well most people would think our lives are total insanity and that wouldn't be wrong. It was pretty close because I nearly said the whole spell. I was in the basement of the manor except it was a mental hospital. It was absolutely crazy which I guess was the whole point.

It was tempting the thought that I could have a normal life. He really knew how to get to me because he acted like Prue was alive. Yes there's a child in my future but I don't think I could bring a child into this world with demons attacking all the time. I can't even stay at a baby shower for a friend so how in the world can I bring a baby into this world? It's all too much for me to think about now. Sure I want to have a child with Leo but I don't think this is the time. We need to take out the Source first.

Entry Seven

Dear Diary

I didn't want to be right but I was because the robobaby was busted. So it proved that things are just too dangerous around here. I don't want what happened to the doll to happen to a real baby. It's just too crazy around here. I just don't want to take that risk. Leo was disappointed and so am I. Maybe one day just not now.

Entry Eight

Dear Diary

Well the theme party turned out great. I've never been a fan of the whole theme thing. I have to say that I'm not a fan of warlocks banding together like that. So we have a muse that inspires us. Melody did give me a bit of a rush there. I'm just glad the ring is back with the good guys because we don't need evil to be inspired.

If I ever get stuck with a theme night again I'll have Phoebe and Paige take care of it. I came up empty for a protection potion. It would come in handy but it just doesn't exist. If there was one we'd be putting it in our morning coffee. I guess it wouldn't hurt to experiment but I'm not holding my breath. I'm sure if it was possible someone would have already come up with it.

Entry Nine

Dear Diary

What a day it's been. One sister went to the past and the other gets possessed by a ghost. That punch really hurt. At least there wasn't too much damage done with the ghost couple. Okay my dead Grams conducted the ceremony and Prue nearly ruined it but one that was cleared up it was a lovely ceremony.

I'm glad we were able to help Paige. It's tough losing a parent not to mention both at once. My husband is brilliant. It was a great idea to allow Paige to see her parents and hopefully make peace with herself and to stop blaming herself for something that wasn't her fault. So Phoebe finally said yes. I knew she wanted to get married and now that Cole's human a huge obstacle is removed. I'm so happy for her.

Entry Ten

Dear Diary

Phoebe has to be the only person on the planet that actually enjoys jury duty. I always dread it because it's a pain in the butt. Well at least in her case she can get a premonition to see if the person's guilty or not. This time the guy turns out to be innocent. I guess vanquishing regular bad guys is out although it would kinda come in handy.

Too bad I can't use memory dust to erase my name from the list or whatever that is responsible for assigning jury duty. At least we saved Stan. Of course demons were involved. No wonder those rats freaked me out because they were rat demons. I hate regular rats let alone rat demons.

Entry Eleven

Dear Diary

Leo and I have been arguing about a baby that isn't even her yet. He wanted to bind his powers and I didn't. Meeting Tyler has changed my mind about that. Yes we shouldn't have been kept in the dark but Grams allowed us a childhood which was a great gift. Magic is a gift but it's hard enough being a kid without that to deal with. Tyler's a good kid that I want to keep in touch with. He might want his powers unbound one day.

I might consider binding but we don't have to deal with that right now. We have to take out the Source before I even want to think about getting pregnant. A warning should have come with that cursed ring. I got lucky with Leo but not everyone ends up marrying an angel. I'm glad that Tyler now has a good home. I guess I got in touch with my inner mother.

Entry Twelve

Dear Diary

I'm just glad that we took out the Source. He was pretty scary. That was quite a scare when Leo was shot. I'm just glad that part of the nightmare is over. Well we got the son of a bitch that's to blame for Prue getting killed which feels good. I didn't like him stealing our powers. I must admit that I enjoy blowing demons up.

Now maybe we can finally see about starting a family. Well the practicing will be just dandy. I have never been so wiped out by a vanquish. I finally got Leo to sign. I just want my will in order just in case. Since Phoebe had a too close call she's making out a will too.

Entry Thirteen

Dear Diary

Well I'm glad I never had to do a spell to decide whether to marry Leo or not. I guess it's easier when you're in love with an angel when it comes to making that choice. So much for getting a chance to celebrate. We take out the Source and now we have to worry about someone taking his place. Can't we get a break around here before the next big demon attack after all we have a wedding coming up. I just hope Phoebe's goes off smoother than mine did.

Entry Fourteen

Dear Diary

With Phoebe's wedding I've been thinking about mine. Of course a demon tried to mess things up. The wedding turned out really nice surprisingly there was a cute chapel in the mausoleum. It was just the family and there was a priest to perform the ceremony. We were all dressed up so it turned out well.

I've learned that there's no such thing as a perfect wedding. I drove myself crazy and the most important thing is getting the man of your dreams. I'm so happy for Phoebe. She had her own struggle to get married which I'm all too familiar with. We have to worry about the Seer because she was the one that caused the disaster this time around. Thank God no one died. Maybe Darryl has a point about the weddings in this family.

Entry Fifteen

Dear Diary

What a day. Leo and I finally get a honeymoon only to have it cut short. That's a recurring theme. It's funny but I've been so horny lately. Well we're getting lots of practice in so maybe one of these times will take and I'll get pregnant. I decided to take my advice and get a life. Damn it I deserve it and I never had a honeymoon. Hopefully we'll get back to it tomorrow.

That was so strange when those demons all of a sudden knelt down. I guess they know better than to mess with the Charmed Ones. My powers didn't work right but at least I blew up those demonic powers. I enough to do that at least. Paige is all right but she still doesn't accept Cole which she'll have to do since she's part of the family now. I hope in time she'll come to accept him. It would make things less tense.

Entry Sixteen

Dear Diary

Now helping a friendly ghost is just fine but these two were no better than demons. That was a pretty close call. I don't think I want to be stabbed any time soon. I took great pleasure in vanquishing their sorry asses. I don't like anyone trying to kill my husband even if he's already dead.

Those two must have lost their brains when they died. I can't believe they'd blame Leo for their deaths. For crying out loud it was a war and he died saving lives. He is one of the best men I've ever known. I'm just glad he went to the reunion. I think it helped him realize that he wasn't to blame and that he did a lot of good.

Entry Seventeen

Dear Diary

Damn it I was hoping that I might be pregnant. I was a few days late so I kinda got my hopes up. I'm not even sure if I'll be able to get pregnant especially after getting thrown around by various demons over the years. We've been trying but no luck yet. I know there was a daughter in the future but I wonder if that's changed too.

I really miss having Phoebe living her. I know she wants private time with Cole but I grew up with her so it's a little hard to accept her gone when we've been living together so long. I want her to be happy so I'll just have to get used to it. I'm glad that I have Paige around so it's not like I'm alone and of course my wonderful husband.

Entry Eighteen

Dear Diary

Well that was absolutely awful. Phoebe becomes the Queen of all evil and I go on a bender. I'm never drinking that much again. Talk about the hangover from hell. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it was for her to vanquish Cole. The only one that sensed something was wrong was Paige. I should have listened to her but I doubt we could have spared Phoebe some major pain.

Well she came home afterwards and went straight to her room. I'll just let her be and see her in the morning. I have no idea what to say. I don't know what I'd do if it had been Leo. That had to be the worst vanquish because it broke Phoebe's heart. My heart just hurts for her especially after everything they'd gone through only to have this happen.

Entry Nineteen

Dear Diary

I have to admit that I was pretty tempted. At times is seemed like having a normal life was my mantra. It would have made life simpler and no demons trashing the place. But I don't know if I could live knowing that people were dying some of which we could have saved. The good and the bad I actually like being a witch. So another agent bites the dust.

It's been a time of surprises. Cole shows up which ended up saving Phoebe's life. Well it's a relief that we don't have to worry about those files. We're witches it's just who we are. Oh my God I'm pregnant. I was worried that it would never happen especially after the test results. I'm so happy about this and kinda worried at the same time.

2002-2003